#136 you're crashing but you're no wave

for once can you stop playing victims and own up to your mistake? friggin imbeciles.

#126 another unholy onfession

This is the main reason why I can't wait to go back. Perangai masing-masing macam haram.

#108

Muak. Jelak. Jelek. Jijik. You name it. Perangai kau, hina. Talam berjuta muka. Godai.

#98

Minggu ni minggu buat aku mcm tak wujud & leave me in the dark ke mcm mana? Haa? HAA? Selamat hari raya maaf zahir batin my ass. Thank you.

#94 Inaudible Cracks

Let me disappear if that will make everybody happy. Well no, this time around, YOU disappear. Bahasa sopan, pergi apa? Jawab sendiri.


Thank you for ruining my almost perfect day.

#91 Yeah when I'm really pissed off I write in Malay

Tak faham. Dalam lecture hall berborak. Pergi teraweh berborak. Pergi shopping of course berborak tak hengat. Naik bas berborak macam bas tu kau punya. Mana-mana pun borak. Cakap sana cakap sini. Awak, awak tak penat ke? Kita pun suka cakap jugak, tapi masa kena senyap kita senyap la, ye tak? Kalau lecturer bagi lecture kat depan, cuba diam boleh? Kalau nak borak baik awak tak payah pg kelas, awak  book 1 lecture hall or tutorial room or Fale Pasifika ke, pastu awak borak la dgn kawan baik awak tu sampai muntah. Pergi surau/masjid, pak imam tgh bg tazkirah, cuba tahan sikit nafsu berjoyah tu boleh? Kalau setakat main cubit2 bg hilang ngantuk tu boleh la terima, ni siap cerita pasal kau ponteng puasa semalam mak kau lupa kau kat auckland kau lupa sidai baju kucing kau pengsan sbb tak cukup tidur stokin kau kecut sbb masuk dryer ape jadohnye.

Aku tak faham, serious tak faham, kenapa, kenapa sesetengah orang, cerita dia tak pernah habis. Setiap masa adeeeeee je benda dia nk cakap. Why people, why. Impian aku, aku nak cakap ni kat org macam awak 'Eh kau ni annoyingnya. Cuba senyap 1 minit............. Maigad amannya dunia bila kau senyap!!!' or 'DUDE SHUT THE F UP YOU'RE ANNOYING EVERYONE IN HERE CAN U LIKE GODAIIII?! MAIGADDD' *hempas pintu*

Sekian terima kasih. 

#67 Hurt me tomorrow.

You can make fun of others, you can give sarcastic remarks, you can make hurtful comments about others, you can laugh at people's mistakes, you can belittle others. You can do everything.

While others, when dealing with you, they have to think twice. They can't say those sarcastic remarks, let alone hurtful comments about you. They can't laugh at your mistakes. They can't degrade you. Or else you'll get mad, or uh, you'll 'stop being a friend'.

And I choose to stay away from you. Problem solved. Hopefully. 

God bless you, princess.

#59 Makan tahi sendiri.

You hate people who snap at you. So why do you snap at other people?

You hate moody people who make long faces when they're not in a good mood. So why do you make those long faces when you're out of mood?

You hate it when people degrade you. So why do you degrade others?

You hate it when others talk bad about your best friends AND boyfriend. So why do you talk shite about others' best friends AND boyfriend?

You hate people who talk behind your back when you obviously do that behind everyone's back.

You hate whiny people. Yet you yourself are... nothing but a whiner, complainer.

Sometimes I wish I could just disappear. Vanish. Be invisible. So that troubles won't find me, and go bug someone else. But that's impossible so I might as well enjoy whatever shit coming my way. 

P/s; Will update on my trip to South Islands later, kalau rajin.
P/s; Oh sorry kalau terasa. Penatla jaga hati orang.

#53 Somebody that I used to know (better) .

Funny how one moment you're laughing your heart out and the next moment you found yourself crying for no apparent reason. No, scratch that. You know exactly why you cried - you're a helpless coward and you just let the sadness bottle up inside you and suffocate yourself.  

What I'm trying to say is, it's not always sunny and warm in one's soul. Sometimes the wind's so strong the soul can't bear. That, is what we call life. Ain't no sunshine without rain, kannn ~

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And that was from hmm about three or four days ago. Memang blergh. Right now, hati aku macam dah tawar. Lantak kau la perempuan. Malas nak baik sangat dgn kau.

"The stupid neither forgive nor forget; the naïve forgive & forget; the wise forgive but don't forget"

I'm stupid. Affirmative. 

#52 My ears have tuned you out

What I really wanna do is shut you up, cause all you do is talk the talk & that's enough. 

#43 Lucky you, lucky lucky me

I can feel you, Bella. I totally can. God I feel like .... sleeping. Yeah that's pretty much the only thing that I'm good at. Way to go, syue.

#42 I'm not you, now that would be disastrous

I've been wondering. Why are people so depressed? Why do some people seem so negative towards the world, as if nothing good ever exists? Oh come on, answer me someone. Is it really that bad, what you're going through? Is it really the end of the world, that you can't seem to see any ray of hope in whatever situation you're in? Do you really think by being all whiny about your so-called problems, those problems will fade away? Have you ever tried this solution called 'prayer'? Have you? If you're a Muslim, like me, you must've come across the saying 'Prayer is a Muslim's weapon', yeah? Okay, what'd you say? You're not that religious so you don't think God will pay any attention to your prayers? Seriously? How can you be so sure about that hun? Prayers is not a one-time thing darling. I'm sure you know that. 

Okay fine, if you think being all religious and pious won't help in lessening the burden you're carrying, try this. SHUT THE HELL UP AND DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. Please. All I can see is that you're all talk and when things go wrong, you'll find someone to put the blame on. As if you'll get any reward out of that. 

You're your own problem. Positive.

#27 Of my stalker ( takde kaitan )

Well at least I know someone, apart from my family, who's willing to be there. Aku macam dah give up sebenarnya. Sikit je lagi. Selalu je aku baca or dengar orang kata dia rasa penat bila she or he's the only one yg terhegeh-hegeh nk reunion or jumpa balik kawan lama or stuff like that. And to be honest, aku banyak rasa benda tu lately. Lagi la bila baru balik oversea ni kan. Semua orang aku nk jumpa. Rindula konon. Tapi? Orang taknak pun jumpa aku. So. Lantak koranglah taknak jumpa aku. Aku ada kawan baik nama Atiqah Zainudin, dia nak bawak pg jalan2 KL. Boooooooo semua orang. BOOOOOOOOOOOOO sampai esok!!!! Ke lautt!! Fuhh sangat puas okay bila emo in Malay. 

Ok aku excited sebenarnya hihihi. Weed, make yourself available on this date okay -> 24/12/11 :D

#23 Of some people I don't get

I hate you and your never-ending emotional issues. You seem cheerful, happy on the outside, but deep inside, you're not. I know that. I get that. It's always been that way. You're a frail little flower that needs to be treated a bit more carefully than the others. But have you not realized this - you're not the only one. Other people are just as fragile as you are. Other people are struggling, too. If only you had a little tinge of humanity inside, you might realize that these other people, they have no time for your bullshit and nonsense. Wake up honey. Life isn't that sweet. Sometimes you have to walk alone, and bear with whatever pain that's waiting for you. And learn from it. Not talk about it like a little child on facebook or whatever social networking accounts you have. 

Too lazy to think of the ending for this sermon. Bye.

#22 Of nothing

Haram berlambak aku type pastu stuck pastu end up kt draft. Jadahnye aku ni.

#11 Of accepting the differences

You're not to be blamed, of course. It's me. It's always been me. But at least, try not to change others. People can't always do things your way. I know your ways of doing things are simply the best, but have you not heard of accepting others' differences? Well I'm aware of the fact that people might criticize others because they want you to do or be better, and that healthy criticism is good and needed indeed. But that won't work all the time, honey. Too much of anything can make you sick. Same goes to belittling others. 

But still, if belittling others makes your life complete, I'll try my best to accept this kind of difference and let you do that anytime anywhere to or with anyone you want. Just not to or near me, please. Thanks but no thanks.